you keep on saying you'll be mine for a while

i think i might know why this summer has felt so empty.

i miss the scripp kids.

terribly.

MIXTAPALOOZA

other than being insanely thankful that one of my best friends is among the living after a motorcycle accident, i went to pitchfork music festival in chicago this weekend.

here's some tracks from bands that played which i burned onto a cd for my dad. so even though this is skewed toward my dad, they are all still good songs.

P4K 2K9

(sendspace download)

track list:

1. Warm Heart Of Africa - The Very Best (ft. Ezra Koenig of Vampire Weekend)

2. Fake Empire - The National

3. Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear

4. Wind Phoenix - Cymbals Eat Guitars

5. Resovoir Park - The Dutchess and The Duke

6. Kettering - The Antlers

7. Weed Demon - Wavves

8. Run Into Flowers - M83

9. Wet Hair - Japandroids

10. Canadian Girl - The Walkmen

11. Stay Alive - The Pains Of Being Pure At Heart

12. Postcards From Italy - Beirut

13. Furr - Blitzen Trapper

14. Black Rice - Women

15. Red Cave - Yeasayer

here is a mix i made for the lovely hb following her accident this weekend and is in the mail to her now.

the ones you love

(sendspace download)

1. Kathleen - Josh Ritter

2. California Stars - Wilco and Billy Bragg

3. Cinnamon - The Long Winterss

4. Slip of a Girl - Duke Special

5. Sundress - Ben Kweller

6. Written In Heart Signs, Faintly - Throw Me The Statue

7. Park Song - The Dodos

8. Me and the Bees - The Softies

9. In The Dark On Monday - The Woodlands

10. Astronaut - Salem

11. The Last Snowfall - Vienna Teng

12. Sea of Love - Cat Power

13. I'll Be On The Water - Akron/Family

14. Sunol - Will Stratton

here are some songs i like for the summer.

real summer

(sendspace download)

1. French Navy  - Camera Obscura

2. The Earthquake of  '73 - Fruit Bats

3. You Really Got A Hold On Me - She & Him

4. You Came to Me - Beach House

5. Ce N'est Pas Bon - Amadou & Mariam

6. Cape Cod Kwassa Kwassa Remix - The Very Best

7. things will never be the same again -  jj

8. Teen Lovers - The Virgins

9. Raw Sugar - Metric

10. Green River - Real Estate

11. Beautiful & Very Smart - Harlem

12. Deadbeat Summer - Neon Indian

13. Ce Jeu - Yelle

14. 2080 - Yeasayer

15. My Night with the Prostitute From Marseilles - Beirut

16. Summer Days - Phoenix

i was delirious, i clung to the stretcher

me this last week without sleep.

i'm fading but ridiculous.

if you have to stay, i'll be on the water

every night for over a week, i've been having these dreams. they are about as real as dreams can be without being reality, and i wake up at four every morning without fail.

my sleep is rocky, and my dreams are almost nightmares.

so i have these little interludes in my nights of words and music.

no matter the weather

i think my body is filled with some dense substance that makes me feel night quite human.

the side-effects of this include an inability to sleep while creating an unshakable fatigue.

what if i kept going?

i'm having an unrequited love affair with the world.

i see what i had not known

the morning feels like california. cool and bright, with the sound of cars and coffee in the air. i'll just imagine that i'm in san diego for a bit. that if i leave this room, mare will give me a cup of coffee, and i'll sit outside and pet jolie and watch the ocean. i'll walk to the yacht club and sail and, on the way back, stop in at red's and eat a bagel and sit. that would be nice. i'd like to go to san diego.